an existential crisis and its management

"Life is not a problem to be solved, but a reality to be experienced"

- Søren Kierkegaard.

 The series is devoted to the existential crisis and my ways out of it. It was shot on the eve of my 30th birthday. That time I strongly felt the fear of death, frustration and uncertainty. I didn't know who I was and whether I actually existed or not.
At the certain moment I made a decision to face all my fears, to introduce myself to them and accept them as a part of myself; to accept that abyss and emptiness, to experience that state of existential crisis and get through it; and, finally, see that a crisis is, actually, a possibility. The possibility to get to know yourself and start living to the full extent.


If I'm afraid of death, I'm afraid to live and can't create and love.

If I'm afraid of change and of becoming another person, I'm afraid to be myself.

If I'm looking for the sense and I'm afraid of losing it, I'm neither free or responsible for my life.

If I'm afraid of losing the sense, I think it exists. But when I know that it doesn't, I'm free and I'm able to live. To live my own life, realizing and feeling it.

And each moment I can create my own true and only possible sense.